If I smash my head into the wall repeatedly, will it stop?

I dreamed that Aveline and Anders were assigned to "represent" the children in one of those vile detainment camps, and I had to go with them.

I have dreamed this, or some version of "You have to go do some hideous task that you hate but cannot avoid" for the last several nights.

I am so tired, and I can't sleep, and what sleep I get isn't restful, and then I go to work and there are dead babies and screaming clients, and I come home and have to think about Ireland minutiae (which is at least fun), and then I check my email and everything is awful, and I go to bed knowing that everything is awful.

I am so tired.

Reading Log: Smoke in the Sun by Renee Ahdieh; Codename Villanelle by Luke Jennings; The Hills Have Spies by Mercedes Lackey; Say You'll Remember Me by Katie McGarry; Lockstep by Karl Schroeder